You Are the Light
If you have experienced sexual assault or sexual abuse, the darkness is pervasive. It is a fly on the wall that won't stop buzzing. It is the hum of your Mind that keeps you up at night. It is the negative thoughts that threaten to destroy every chance at happiness.
The darkness is what has allowed you to 'cope' with the memories of the abuse. It offers you a safe place to hide when you feel the shame of all the wrong decisions you've made. The darkness hides you from the world and keeps people from really seeing you.
The darkness is a comfortable place and being there is a love-hate relationship. You love the security that it offers but you hate that you want to get out and you don't know how.
The darkness is the friend that constantly talks about you and doesn't care about your life or your future. It is the friend that gets on your nerves but you deal with it because it is the only friend you have. The darkness is your best friend and your worst enemy.
Oh, the comfort of sitting alone in a room and letting the tears fall—relishing the release of lost dreams, bad choices, broken promises, and fear. The pain of the darkness is palpable. The comfort of the darkness is tangible. It has manifested itself in every area of your life.
You look in the mirror and see the darkness reflected in your eyes. You are living and breathing and dying and gasping for air at the same time. You sit alone with your thoughts and repeat the same scenarios over and over again, wondering when something is going to change.
The fear of the Light is real.
We have all had our moments in the darkness. Some have lasted hours. Some have lasted days. For some, the darkness has lasted for years. We've all been there together but we just couldn't see each other. We were blind.
Have you ever heard of someone being blinded by darkness? Of course not, eventually your eyes adjust and you are able to see. What blinds us is the light. The light that is too bright to look at directly. The light that will burn us if we dare fly too close to it. The light that is within us that blazes like an eternal flame. . . and we are afraid of it.
And so we sit in the dark. . . comfortable and uncomfortable, raging and praying, laughing and crying, rarely realizing the truth: You cannot have darkness without light.
For what is darkness but the absence of light? One does not define light by darkness. So, the struggle is to remember who you are. . . you are a Spirit having a human experience in Mind and in Body. You are the Light. You were born into a dark world and you have to constantly remind yourself of who you are and the power that you possess. . . even when you may feel powerless.
If you can return to your Spirit, you can overcome the pain of what happened to your Body and you can change the thoughts of your Mind. You have to remember who you are: YOU ARE THE LIGHT.
Your journey is not about coming out of the darkness, for darkness is all around you. Your journey is going back into the light. Shifting your focus inward. Renewing your Mind. Strengthening your Body. Remembering who you are in Spirit.
The light within you is the very reason why you are still here. The darkness tried to take you out but you are still flickering, still burning, still looking for that wind of fresh air that will fan your flame and cause you to shine brightly again and dispel the darkness.
Before someone hurt you, you were the Light.
After someone hurt you, you are still the Light.
Your flame has never completely gone out. . . after all, you are still here. And since you are still here, there is still time to fan the flame and strengthen the Light within you.
All is not lost. All can be found in the Light.
The darkness is what has allowed you to 'cope' with the memories of the abuse. It offers you a safe place to hide when you feel the shame of all the wrong decisions you've made. The darkness hides you from the world and keeps people from really seeing you.
The darkness is a comfortable place and being there is a love-hate relationship. You love the security that it offers but you hate that you want to get out and you don't know how.
The darkness is the friend that constantly talks about you and doesn't care about your life or your future. It is the friend that gets on your nerves but you deal with it because it is the only friend you have. The darkness is your best friend and your worst enemy.
Oh, the comfort of sitting alone in a room and letting the tears fall—relishing the release of lost dreams, bad choices, broken promises, and fear. The pain of the darkness is palpable. The comfort of the darkness is tangible. It has manifested itself in every area of your life.
You look in the mirror and see the darkness reflected in your eyes. You are living and breathing and dying and gasping for air at the same time. You sit alone with your thoughts and repeat the same scenarios over and over again, wondering when something is going to change.
The fear of the Light is real.
We have all had our moments in the darkness. Some have lasted hours. Some have lasted days. For some, the darkness has lasted for years. We've all been there together but we just couldn't see each other. We were blind.
Have you ever heard of someone being blinded by darkness? Of course not, eventually your eyes adjust and you are able to see. What blinds us is the light. The light that is too bright to look at directly. The light that will burn us if we dare fly too close to it. The light that is within us that blazes like an eternal flame. . . and we are afraid of it.
And so we sit in the dark. . . comfortable and uncomfortable, raging and praying, laughing and crying, rarely realizing the truth: You cannot have darkness without light.
For what is darkness but the absence of light? One does not define light by darkness. So, the struggle is to remember who you are. . . you are a Spirit having a human experience in Mind and in Body. You are the Light. You were born into a dark world and you have to constantly remind yourself of who you are and the power that you possess. . . even when you may feel powerless.
If you can return to your Spirit, you can overcome the pain of what happened to your Body and you can change the thoughts of your Mind. You have to remember who you are: YOU ARE THE LIGHT.
Your journey is not about coming out of the darkness, for darkness is all around you. Your journey is going back into the light. Shifting your focus inward. Renewing your Mind. Strengthening your Body. Remembering who you are in Spirit.
The light within you is the very reason why you are still here. The darkness tried to take you out but you are still flickering, still burning, still looking for that wind of fresh air that will fan your flame and cause you to shine brightly again and dispel the darkness.
Before someone hurt you, you were the Light.
After someone hurt you, you are still the Light.
Your flame has never completely gone out. . . after all, you are still here. And since you are still here, there is still time to fan the flame and strengthen the Light within you.
All is not lost. All can be found in the Light.
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