L.A.M.B.S.

This entry took a long time to write because it is the most personal. I wanted to write in my usual format but I know that someone needs to read this and realize that there are millions of us who fight against extreme living. As a survivor of childhood molestation, sexual assault, and sexual abuse, I spent most of my life being angry and sad. As a child, I had behavioral issues and I was depressed. As a teenager and young adult, I turned to drugs and alcohol to help me deal with the pain. As an adult, I have worked myself to the brink of death (literally) and I have filled my life with thoughts and activities that keep me from focusing on my past. This usually works well, but there are still moments when the pain overwhelms me. Over the last three years, I prayed earnestly to God, asking Him to help me to let it all go. I was tired of hurting and I was tired of letting the abuse affect every aspect of my life. Today, I’ve come a long way in my healing journey